Disappearance

Where have I been? Honestly I forgot I had this blog and not until a passing wave of curiosity did I decide to stumble back upon it. I laughed a little outloud when reading my past entries. How can I explain what has happened to me since January? In an innocent way I'd like to go back to that time just to re-experience what I was going through. But I have met somebody since then and my life has changed. He is beautiful in every sense of the word. His goodness is indescribable and I love him truly. There is something about a person like me where love is not a natural expression. He makes me want to be a better person; he makes me want to get better, to stay healthy. He makes me want forever.

As far as inward change all I can ask is: is that ever possible? I think a slight metamorphosis can happen but its a linked change that blends all past to all future selves. I am starting college in less in a week. Such imposing circumstances that are supposed to hold so much promise. Will I capture the moment and hold it for all that is mine? I know not and I doubt I ever will. I need a direction in my writing because I am so insecure as to where it stands.